Hello November!

Welcome November! That's my motto this month. I'm going to embrace this month and know deep down in my heart that baby will come. But not now. We celebrated Halloween with a big bash in downtown MV with some friends. It was fun, intoxicating and just good old fashioned silliness. But..it did make me realize something. I'm ready. Partying is fun, but I'm ready for motherhood. I drank..more than I should've, had a raging good time. But it's funny, I can take it or leave it really. I don't like the days after it takes for me to recover from a night out like that. I hate how polluted my body feels. All in all it sort of dampens my spirit. 12 months + without that feeling wouldn't bother me much at all. I honestly don't know how alcoholics can possibly feel that way ever day..UGH! It makes me ill just thinking about it....I think I'm too ADD to be addicted to anything really. lol.

One thing that worried me though...was the (okay, I'm going to get graphic here) but I was just a tad hungover and did have a few awful "moments" in the bathroom...I attest this to not having had any alcohol for so long. Three drinks did this to me...Which brings me to morning sickness. I DO NOT LIKE VOMITTING. I don't know what I'll do if it ever comes to that. Some people say that it only lasts like the first trimester, some have it their whole pregnancy and some never even have to deal with it. I don't know how my body will respond. Its quite sensitive to most things though.

Anyway...Just thought I'd update. Nothing really going on in this neck of the woods. No baby dreams, no more tears. Just a deeps sense of knowing that I'm much more than physically ready for baby. I'm emotionally and mentally there as well now too.