Pregnancy - Week 12

Dear Baby,
Today I am 12 weeks and 3 days pregnant with you. I feel you all the time now. You're amazing. Sometimes it hurts and other times I just feel like I'm being stretched out. The other day I was laying down watching TV waiting for work to come in and I jumped! Just like that - out of nowhere! I think you did a complete circle inside of me! It happened so fast! At first I worried that maybe I've been eating too much sugar or something, but then I just relaxed and realize that you're just growing and becoming active. Baby, I was already a little overweight when I first got pregnant, but now, I look rather large! I am starting to wonder if you're going to be big like your older brother. Another funny thing that's been happening is my dreams! Baby I don't know what you're thinking or feeling when I'm asleep but you give me very vivid and incredible dreams. I can ony imagine the depth of what your imagination will blossom into. I dream of outer space, deep ocean sea life, like big beautiful whales and sometimes Hawaii.

Your Zia Rosie and cousin Barnaby are here visiting from England. I love spending time with them, I don't get to see them that often. So it's been a real treat having them here, they are only here for 10 days. Nonna is having a wonderful time with them. She misses them a lot when they leave. She just keeps waiting and praying for you. We all are baby. You're so wanted, so many people are waiting for you. Daddy and I the most. We know how much you're going to change our lives. Even now just being pregnant with you, you've made me a better person. I care about things in ways I never felt before. Its usually because I'm thinking of you and your saftey and health. I think of the love you give me even now. I know that sounds crazy baby, but I can feel it. I can feel what an amazing little person you are even now. As I type this, you're moving around inside me. I can feel you at the bottom of my uterus. Sometimes it feels like you're dragging your feet, other times it feels like you're dancing. I think you know when I'm thinking about you.

Looking around the room, I am sitting in our living room, on white leather couches. I'm watching Buster sleep soundly, I smell lemon cheescake bars that I'm baking and I feel so tranquil and peaceful. I love my life baby. We are so blessed. We have so much in our lives that make it complete and whole, you are the frosting on this cake. I think of you everyday little one, and I smile.

I love you,
Your Mommy